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the scars on her arm have faded

her memories can't be traded

because her memories are extremely dark

of how she made each single mark

of when depression was killing her

she'd take a knife, or similar object

she'd make a cut in her skin

allowing no emotion in

one day when she got so pissed with life

she took to her room, the sharpest knife

on her arm she carved " die bitch die "

and blood mixed with tears as she cried

but those days have been gone

the last time she cut, it was so long

though the scars on her arm have faded

these scares in my mind, can't be traded

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines

  he wrote a poem

And he called it "Chops"

  Because that was the name of his dog

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

  and a gold star

And his mother hung it on the kitchen door

  and read it to his aunts

That was the year Father Tracy

  Took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus

And his little sister was born

  With tiny toenails and no hair

And his mother and father kissed a lot

And the girl around the corner sent him a

  Valentine signed with a row of X's

  and he had to ask his father what the X's meant

And his father always tucked him in bed at night

And was always there to do it.

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines

  he wrote a poem

And he called it "Autumn"

  because that was the name of the season

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

  and asked him to write more clearly

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

  because of its new paint

And the kids told him

  that Father Tracy smoke cigars

And left butts on the pews

And sometimes they would burn holes

That was the year his sister got glasses

  with thick lenses and black frames

And the girl around the corner laughed

  when he asked her to go see Santa Claus

And the kids told him why

  his mother and father kissed a lot

And his father never tucked him in bed at night

And his father got mad

  when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook

  he wrote a poem

And he called it "Innocence: A Question"

  because that was the question about his girl

And That's what it was all about

And his professor gave him an A

  and a strange steady look

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

  because he never showed it to her

That was the year that Father Tracy died

And he forgot how the end

  of the Apostle's Creek went

And he caught his sister

  making out on the back porch

And his mother and father never kissed

  or even talked

And the girl around the corner

  wore too much makeup

That made him cough when he kissed her

  but he kissed her anyway

  because that was the thing to do

And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed

  his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag

  he tried another poem

And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"

Because that's what it really was all about

And he gave himself an A

And a slash on each damned wrist

And he hung it on the bathroom door

 because he didn't think

 he could reach the Kitchen.

This was like your perfect mistake
to me you meant the world,
you got me to trust someone for once
but in your eyes I was just a little girl.
You made promises to me you couldn’t keep
promised me you wouldn’t leave,
but you turned the other way and left me all alone
left me hurting so fucking bad.
Ill never trust again
fuck everything now, I wish I could die,
why’d you have to do this to me?
I should’ve never taken you back
my biggest fucking mistake
giving you a second chance,
I thought you loved me but i was really wrong.
So excuse me while i kill myself
in a slow and painful way,
maybe someday i would’ve been happy again
but it had to end today.
I connect the dots with this razor blade
on my blood stained wrist,
cutting back on the memories
forget our every kiss.
Everything seems to depress me now
I didn’t want you gone,
I wish this was all just a dream
where everything went wrong.
i try to scream but you cant hear me
you just keep walking away,
everything is falling apart
please come back and stay.
Now lets rewind
go back to my beautiful suicide,
ill tape record it for you
so you can watch me slowly die...
*i loved you*

         she finally lets go of her fake smile

         and the tears slowly roll down her

         face as she whispers in the mirror..

                   "I dont want to be me"

This is how we like to do it in a murder scene. <3